I have four blog posts just sitting in my drafts pile and I wasn't planning on publishing any of them tonight.
Nor was I planning on publishing this one.
However, tonight, at 12:52 a.m., which is really 11:52 p.m. because, you know, daylight savings and stuff (leaving me kind of between-days here) I feel compelled to share my testimony.
Which is weird because that is not what this blog is.
There are blogs meant to share people's personal religious feelings and there are blogs meant to share the embarrassing story about the time you walked across the entire BYU campus with the back of your dress accidentally tucked up behind your backpack and everyone saw your undies.
This blog is the latter.
I am very grateful for the former kind of blog. I am grateful that people have space to share and answer questions and share beliefs and hope and messages of Christ. Personally, I choose to share my religion in a different way than this blog.
I also don't ever (ever) want this blog to turn into the type of blog where I portray my life as anything but messy and ridiculous. To be clear: my life IS messy and ridiculous. I have some serious beef with any blogger (or person) who pretends their life is otherwise.
Alls I'm sayin is this:
I have a testimony of my Savior Jesus Christ.
And when I use the word testimony, which can mean so many different things for so many different people, I mean that I believe He is a real person who came to this earth and died for each of us.
I mean that I know that He is my literal brother.
I mean that I believe that Jesus Christ is my Savior in the sense that because of Him I can grow and change and one day live with my Heavenly Father and Heavenly Mother again.
I mean that I know if I try my hardest to be the best person I can, He will make up the rest.
And trust me, with me there is going to be a lot to make up for.
The best part is, I believe that because of Jesus Christ I can live with my family forever, including my best friend Cj (who also happens to be my husband. BONUS.)
If you have questions about why I believe this, just ask. You can also go here: lds.org
Because of the community I live in, I assume the majority of my readers (though not all) are, like me, LDS.
I do not assume that the majority of my readers think or feel or believe the same way that I do. I love discussing belief. I'd love to hear about yours. I am very open to the ideas and beliefs of others. I find them interesting and extremely personal and close to the heart in the best way. I like to get close to people's hearts because that is how we love each other best.
I hope this post comes across as nothing but my desire to share a part of myself with you. You are more than welcome to share back.
I just wanted to put this out there so you know who you are dealing with.